“Day By Day”

As a kid I saw “Godspell” on Broadway. I loved the music, dance, and story. Today I am old and ill. A reader asked what causes me to suffer. I won’t bore you with a long list of illnesses. I suffer greatly with several painful and terminal illnesses. Despite pain medications I am always in pain. At best the pain is managed to level 7 of 10. The average pain level is 9.

I appreciate all your support! I am frequently homebound. Your emails, comments, likes and occasional cards improve my attitude, ease pain and help me feel not alone.

Everyday I wake approaching things with the best possible attitude. At the end of the day I am at the top level of the pain scale. Each morning I also evaluate whether or not I can go on from here. “Day by Day” I choose to live or die.

Pain Eased-Up

Monday afternoon the pain started easing-up. The Pancreas calmed down and allowed me to relax a bit. Pain has: physical, emotional, psychological, and social consequences. I haven’t been able to leave the house for 5 days. Add “cabin fever” to all of the other issues.

I don’t know where to go with all these issues. I wish I could have a normal life, do normal things, etc. I can no longer pretend. I can only hope people understand.

Thank you for the comments you leave on the Blog – I can’t express how much they help.